Dear Cruel World,
I am sitting in in my house doing nothing of consequence. But see I rather like it. You may tell me that it's awful, that I should have dragged myself out of bed to go to my Algebra class, but honestly, I don't give a whit. I feel rather light-hearted and carefree.
If only I could always feel carefree. If only other people would stop telling me I shouldn't be feeling carefree. They're right. I'm really not so carefree. I'm just avoiding responsibilities and such.
But damn it, I can't think of why these responsibilities should be so dang important to me. There's a reason why I'm careless, I don't care about these particular responsibilities. It's more obligation to me right now than anything else.
And what's worse than obligation? What makes you want to run away faster than obligation? Danger maybe? Impending doom?
Algebra feels like an obligation. A career feels like an obligation. Having money.... Well that is definitely something I want.
Anyway World, the point of all this is to tell you that you suck.
Sincerely, Camille
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This is a scary post. Taking care of obligations and responsibilities, (often as unpleasant as they are) is a part of adult life. It's a part of taking care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteWhatever it is that's making you feel this way, I hope it doesn't suck too much longer.
I'm not saying that all responsibilities are bad, just that the ones I have right now are ones that I don't particularly care about.
ReplyDeleteBut when you feel obligated to do something, you're not doing it for the right reasons.