Oh Professor Kershaw...

Kershaw is my Government 2301 professor and he is someone who bores me to tears. He looks to be almost 60 and seems like a nice old man, which he is. But he's also monotone and he likes to hear himself talk. And he's a good talker. But what I need is a lecture, not a ramble from a nice old man. And so, I write for 75 minutes as he rambles. I take notes from the book later, don't worry. :)

Honestly, I really hate that I've spent so much money on that class. I teach myself, out of the book. Kershaw hits a point loudly and repetitively, then rambles on about something that is indirectly related to it and has no business being in our notes for about 10 minutes, before hitting on the next point and doing the same thing! He does it all with the same tone of voice, no difference in pitch or anything. I've tried taking notes, and it just can't be done. You end up sitting, staring at the wall behind him, for the longest 75 minutes of your life! It's just not right. That is why I write letters and such and take notes from the book later.

I have written 4 letters (all more than 2 pages long and written on both sides) and one journal entry (3 pages long written on both sides!) in there. It's quite a productive writing time for me. I can already see a difference in my writing and I'm enjoying it more. I'm also learning a lot about myself. Plus, my friends get letters! What's better than that? 

I have his test on Wednesday. I'm not excited at all. :/

These entries are very short. I don't like that. I want them to be longish. But I have a short attention span. I really think I'm kind of ADD. My parents don't agree. Hm. One of us is wrong, and I'm pretty sure it's them... I think I know myself way better. But what can I prove?

Okay, off to shower! :)

Thanks for reading!!!

Question: What is your favorite book?

Eyes glued to the computer screen.

Hey there. I am staring at my computer screen. I can't seem to put it away. The computer, I mean. I'm addicted. It's not healthy.

I'm really sleepy right now. I'm yawning. I should be putting this laptop away, turning it off, and opening Trickster's Choice. But I can't because my eyes won't move off from the screen.

I think I'm going to need to have a day free of my computer. It's necessary at times, times when I let myself just stare at it for hours on end; watching YouTube, checking Facebook, checking eBay, checking my e-mail, and watching Netflix. I seem to forget that there are other things to do besides watching multiple episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. This is one of those times.

I've been watching Buffy the Vampire a lot. I'm in the middle of season two. Bleh. One day, I watched seven episodes! SEVEN!!!! I have issues!!!

I mean, I have a book I need to finish and more waiting after, homework that needs to be done, and then there's the future to think about! What college am I going to go to after I finish my basics at the community college? What am I going to do after college?

Wow. That just got way more complicated than it was supposed to. I was just ranting about how I can't seem to turn my computer off and actually do something with my life. I could make a YouTube video (scary thought!), I could write a blog (doing that now!), I could pursue my love of food (who knows, maybe I could do something with that?), I could write a short story (I really need to practice that if I love it so much), and I could do my homework! The possibilities are endless.

I like my computer though. It does bring me some joy. YouTube is better than television, Facebook keeps me in the social world, eBay helps me earn some extra cash, and Buffy the Vampire Slayer is just downright awesome. So I guess I'll keep it. I just need to moderate my time on it. Fun fun.

Question: What's the website you could spend hours upon hours on??

ALONE!!!!!

Ahhh!!!! I have not been alone for 2 days! It may not seem that long, but it is. I feel so calm and peaceful right here. In my bathroom. I'm sitting on the sink, calm down.

But seriously, I was being very touchy and ready to strangle anyone who said anything I perceived as negative towards me. :P

That is all. 

You know...

I was reading Kristina Horner's blog (italktosnakes.blogspot.com) tonight and I started to feel jealous of her. She's so successful in everything she's done, like YouTube, wizard rock, blogging, and she just seems like a great girl. So I think it's pretty understandable why I'm jealous of her. I want to be that successful, I want to have that much fun, I want to be that happy.

But life doesn't work like that. We all have different experiences. God made each one of us different. We can't change it.

So we need to be happy and work with what we've got, because it can turn into something amazing if we let it. Just go with the flow and make choices that make you happy.

And that's all I have to say tonight.